On the back deck of a large, south-facing house, a student sat with her roshi. They drank sweet tea and discussed Stoicism, Buddhism, and other disciplines that lead, perhaps, to enlightenment. An hour into their conversation, a walnut fell from the tree above and hit the student on her shoulder.
She complained about the tree for minutes.
“That is your life exactly.” Her master sighed after her patience ran out. She moved her chair away from the tree.
“What do you mean by that?” asked the student.
“I mean, you are hurt by life because you are not paying attention. And then you come to complain to me.”
“Well, that is what life does. It hurts me.”
“So ... if you had looked up, would you have moved?”
“Of course.” At this, the student did look up. She rose with her chair and moved closer to the roshi.
“Good. Bring the tea pitcher, too.” She motioned to her student, who went to retrieve the covered jug. “Do you remember that yesterday you complained about a friend of yours at work who had all of the luck that you didn't?”
“Yes. She got promoted over me even though I'm as smart as she is, probably smarter.” The student brought the jug. She topped off her glass and took her seat.
“I think life is like this tree,” said the roshi. She gestured to the lower branches. “It rains things down on us from time to time. They might be nuts, leaves, twigs, or any of that sort of thing. Some people look down at their feet. They get hit and complain. Others look up to avoid the hardships. And still others hold out their hands.”
She held out her hands. The tea glass was in them. A bit of leaf dropped into her tea.
“Oops,” she said as she fished it out. “Well, it takes work, of course, to catch and crack a nut. But I think it's a good analogy. If you are aware of it, a nut falling down is a good thing. If not, it might prove painful.”
“I don't think my friend at work studies towards enlightenment,” said the student. “She just got lucky.”
“Maybe. But it could be that she doesn't need to study much.” The roshi nodded to herself. “Not everyone walks the same path. She may practice awareness in her own way and that is why she looked up at the right time. When life threw something at her, she was ready.”
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Not Zen 85: Graduation
A guru often said, "Graduation comes when you have learned to teach yourself."
In spite of hearing that many times, one of her advanced students was surprised when the guru announced it was time for that student to leave. It happened after the student had delivered a presentation outside a coffee house. The subject had been a small point on the history of philosophy. Due the breeze that day, she had trouble making herself heard. When she sat down, she felt her talk had gone badly. Her guru disagreed.
"You teach yourself all the time now," said her guru over a stoneware cup and saucer. She paused to sip her tea. "You're past done. You've learned everything important that I know. You're going beyond. It's time you started your own school."
"I can't do that," the young woman responded.
A few months later the young woman found herself in a strange city, sitting in a small studio surrounded by a group of students assigned to her by her guru. She had a new pupil in her class as well, a young man lured in by his friendship with others. He asked more questions than anyone and he wondered aloud about the lack of furnishings in most of the school rooms. The space had come cheaply but not the furniture. Everyone had to sit on mats on the floors.
"I will write to my guru for advice," the new teacher said.
"You will?"
"She knows how to get donations for such things. I started this school, after all, when I got her agreement that I could write to her for guidance."
In her first month, she asked for suggestions on how to raise money, on what gifts she might expect from which patrons, and on the best ways to settle disputes between students. In the next few months, she requested her guru's recommendations on diet and on religious debates. Later, she wrote to obtain counsel on dealing with another teacher, a peer.
Often she wrote her requests to her master on cards the older woman had provided. One day, in her guru's studio, another such card arrived.
"From my newest teacher," the guru said as she saw the address. She sighed as she opened it because she knew it would be a request for advice.
The card was blank. She turned it over twice to make sure. Then, to the perplexity of the students around her, she laughed. She held her belly.
"Did something go wrong?" one student asked. "Why would she send you a blank note?"
"This is a comment," she replied, "Because graduation also means having the confidence to acknowledge one's mastery."
In spite of hearing that many times, one of her advanced students was surprised when the guru announced it was time for that student to leave. It happened after the student had delivered a presentation outside a coffee house. The subject had been a small point on the history of philosophy. Due the breeze that day, she had trouble making herself heard. When she sat down, she felt her talk had gone badly. Her guru disagreed.
"You teach yourself all the time now," said her guru over a stoneware cup and saucer. She paused to sip her tea. "You're past done. You've learned everything important that I know. You're going beyond. It's time you started your own school."
"I can't do that," the young woman responded.
A few months later the young woman found herself in a strange city, sitting in a small studio surrounded by a group of students assigned to her by her guru. She had a new pupil in her class as well, a young man lured in by his friendship with others. He asked more questions than anyone and he wondered aloud about the lack of furnishings in most of the school rooms. The space had come cheaply but not the furniture. Everyone had to sit on mats on the floors.
"I will write to my guru for advice," the new teacher said.
"You will?"
"She knows how to get donations for such things. I started this school, after all, when I got her agreement that I could write to her for guidance."
In her first month, she asked for suggestions on how to raise money, on what gifts she might expect from which patrons, and on the best ways to settle disputes between students. In the next few months, she requested her guru's recommendations on diet and on religious debates. Later, she wrote to obtain counsel on dealing with another teacher, a peer.
Often she wrote her requests to her master on cards the older woman had provided. One day, in her guru's studio, another such card arrived.
"From my newest teacher," the guru said as she saw the address. She sighed as she opened it because she knew it would be a request for advice.
The card was blank. She turned it over twice to make sure. Then, to the perplexity of the students around her, she laughed. She held her belly.
"Did something go wrong?" one student asked. "Why would she send you a blank note?"
"This is a comment," she replied, "Because graduation also means having the confidence to acknowledge one's mastery."
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Not Zen 84: Emotional Reflexes
A boy brawled with his classmates. He argued with his teachers. He was the youngest boy in his home but he fought his bigger, stronger brothers. He teased his sisters. Eventually his parents sent him to military school.
On graduation, he joined the army. He rose in the ranks and fought in wars. He was many times decorated for bravery. He found that in the field, in the midst of fighting, he felt at home. In the process, to his surprise, he discovered that he was loved as a commander. He hadn't felt much affection before. It made him proud. However, as he grew older and wiser he realized that, his troops liked him but his fellow officers did not. That meant his soldiers often got bad rations or bad equipment.
For two decades he rose higher in the ranks. The more promotions he received, the more his manners seemed out of place to his peers. His superiors demoted him and returned him to battle. That suited him. He was again awarded for bravery. He received an elevation to field general.
In a few months, he was rude to a governor and got demoted again.
On the advice of another general, he went to see a roshi. This roshi practiced swordsmanship for sport so he and the general had something in common. They met and fenced on their first day together. The discussed tactics, met again, fenced for a few hours, and discovered that despite their different styles they were well matched.
“This is fun,” said the general after one long session, “but I'm not as young as I once was. I need to rest. And you, young man, are supposed to help me with my manners.”
“I am not an expert in manners,” said the roshi. “It's possible that I'm the wrong person to teach that sort of thing.”
“I've been referred to experts in manners before. I've failed them. My colleague recommended you for a reason. I don't understand him, I must say. I find you to be as rough as me.”
“Yes, well, I'll try to help you in honor of our mutual friend. There are simple rules for dealing with other people. I understand some of them by process of observation. I see them as practical tasks. So I won't lecture you on the morality of politeness.”
“Good. One expert told me that putting my feet on a chair is disrespectful,” the general snorted.
“It may be,” said the roshi. “But instead of looking into the reasons for actions, as I would normally do, I'll try to teach you politeness as a conditioned reflex. In that way, it will seem more like martial prowess.”
“Are you comparing a 'thank you' to a parry with a sword?”
“No. But that thought might be in line with what I intend. After all, you are a good swordsman because you've developed an understanding of the simple rules of cut, thrust, and parry. You don't need to think. You react.”
“When someone strikes, my reflexes take over.”
“When I am finished with you, I want you to automatically respond correctly when a governor greets you.”
“I may not be an easy pupil, though I'll try. What's the way to generate a proper greeting reflex in myself? What are the rules?”
The roshi put down his sword and demonstrated. He played the role of the governor. He played the role of the general. He switched roles and encouraged the general to practice.
The general attended to his politeness reflexes for many weeks with the help of his roshi.
Things began to happen in his life that had never happened before. His peers in the military started to invite him to social events. He was given an appointment to show his troops to politicians - ordinary for most generals but long denied in his case. The commander of the army, who had previously demoted the general back into the field, appointed him to an advisory post on the headquarters' staff.
“Is it really this simple?” the general asked the roshi one day. “Did I have the wrong reflexes all this time?”
“That may be the case,” the roshi allowed.
“It's a good thing I didn't learn these rules as a child,” said the general. “I would never have gotten into any fights at all. I would never have joined the army or become a general.”
The general tapped the roshi's sword with his own. The roshi laughed and nodded.
“I'm shocked to discover how simple this is,” the general continued. “How has my life, all along, been so guided by these reflexes?”
On graduation, he joined the army. He rose in the ranks and fought in wars. He was many times decorated for bravery. He found that in the field, in the midst of fighting, he felt at home. In the process, to his surprise, he discovered that he was loved as a commander. He hadn't felt much affection before. It made him proud. However, as he grew older and wiser he realized that, his troops liked him but his fellow officers did not. That meant his soldiers often got bad rations or bad equipment.
For two decades he rose higher in the ranks. The more promotions he received, the more his manners seemed out of place to his peers. His superiors demoted him and returned him to battle. That suited him. He was again awarded for bravery. He received an elevation to field general.
In a few months, he was rude to a governor and got demoted again.
On the advice of another general, he went to see a roshi. This roshi practiced swordsmanship for sport so he and the general had something in common. They met and fenced on their first day together. The discussed tactics, met again, fenced for a few hours, and discovered that despite their different styles they were well matched.
“This is fun,” said the general after one long session, “but I'm not as young as I once was. I need to rest. And you, young man, are supposed to help me with my manners.”
“I am not an expert in manners,” said the roshi. “It's possible that I'm the wrong person to teach that sort of thing.”
“I've been referred to experts in manners before. I've failed them. My colleague recommended you for a reason. I don't understand him, I must say. I find you to be as rough as me.”
“Yes, well, I'll try to help you in honor of our mutual friend. There are simple rules for dealing with other people. I understand some of them by process of observation. I see them as practical tasks. So I won't lecture you on the morality of politeness.”
“Good. One expert told me that putting my feet on a chair is disrespectful,” the general snorted.
“It may be,” said the roshi. “But instead of looking into the reasons for actions, as I would normally do, I'll try to teach you politeness as a conditioned reflex. In that way, it will seem more like martial prowess.”
“Are you comparing a 'thank you' to a parry with a sword?”
“No. But that thought might be in line with what I intend. After all, you are a good swordsman because you've developed an understanding of the simple rules of cut, thrust, and parry. You don't need to think. You react.”
“When someone strikes, my reflexes take over.”
“When I am finished with you, I want you to automatically respond correctly when a governor greets you.”
“I may not be an easy pupil, though I'll try. What's the way to generate a proper greeting reflex in myself? What are the rules?”
The roshi put down his sword and demonstrated. He played the role of the governor. He played the role of the general. He switched roles and encouraged the general to practice.
The general attended to his politeness reflexes for many weeks with the help of his roshi.
Things began to happen in his life that had never happened before. His peers in the military started to invite him to social events. He was given an appointment to show his troops to politicians - ordinary for most generals but long denied in his case. The commander of the army, who had previously demoted the general back into the field, appointed him to an advisory post on the headquarters' staff.
“Is it really this simple?” the general asked the roshi one day. “Did I have the wrong reflexes all this time?”
“That may be the case,” the roshi allowed.
“It's a good thing I didn't learn these rules as a child,” said the general. “I would never have gotten into any fights at all. I would never have joined the army or become a general.”
The general tapped the roshi's sword with his own. The roshi laughed and nodded.
“I'm shocked to discover how simple this is,” the general continued. “How has my life, all along, been so guided by these reflexes?”
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Not Zen 83: Familiarity
A burrowing parrot's sons were, like her, part of a colony of thousands of parrots. The grey-feathered birds made their homes in the hollows on the sides of the mountain. They'd lived there for longer than anyone could remember. The colony had gained strength. Their homes were full. Each year, the parrots dug their burrows a little deeper into the rock to make room for more parrots.
The two brothers had grown to maturity in good health. Their father had died long ago but they were strong enough to offer assistance to their mother before the hatching and brooding season. Their mother had not shown interest in finding another mate. So it had become a tradition for the sons to enlarge their mother's burrow. In time, they thought, she would take a mate or they would bring their families to move in with her.
One son had grown to be the alpha male for the colony. He led the largest groups in their migration flights. Many other birds gave way to him. They acceded even to his whims for food, nests, and drinking water. Now the only bird to whom he occasionally deferred was his mother.
He was tough and wise and had married the strongest of females. His children were many.
The other son had grown up to become an ordinary member of the colony. He was one of the weaker males, although considered wise. He had chosen a sickly mate out of love for her spirit. They had one child, now grown and out of their home.
"I feel horrible today," announced the alpha parrot as he landed on the edge of his mother's burrow.
"You look as strong as usual," his brother replied.
"My looks are deceiving. One of my friends tried to poison me."
His brother and his mother chirped at him. It was not unheard of for parrots to seek advantages over one another, especially near the top leadership positions of the colony. But it was alarming for them to hear of such things.
"What makes you say that?" his mother asked.
"He gave me a gift of seeds, as many do." The alpha male strode into his mother's burrow. The other two followed. "But the husks were poisonous."
"Pardon me," said his brother, "but couldn't you see that the husks were on?"
"Yes. I didn't care at the time. I thought I could gnaw off the husks. Isn't that what common parrots do?"
"We do indeed," said his brother. His mother nodded.
"That makes me feel stupid." The alpha parrot walked awkwardly. His stomach rumbled. He pecked once or twice at the back wall of the burrow. Even though he felt ill, his strength was greater than most. Flecks of stone fell from the wall. "I must have done a careless job of it."
"That's not like you," said his mother.
"I'm sure it can't be too bad." His brother joined him at the back where they had planned to expand the burrow. He also chipped away at the wall. "Perhaps you were sloppy. But you still couldn't have eaten many husks."
"I'm not accustomed to feeling ill."
"You'll get through it. You're the strongest, after all. You've been enormously successful."
"Not today. I hate to disappoint you, brother. Today, I'm sick and an idiot."
"I've admired how it hasn't kept you from doing great things.,” said his brother. "But I've always thought you were an idiot."
The two brothers had grown to maturity in good health. Their father had died long ago but they were strong enough to offer assistance to their mother before the hatching and brooding season. Their mother had not shown interest in finding another mate. So it had become a tradition for the sons to enlarge their mother's burrow. In time, they thought, she would take a mate or they would bring their families to move in with her.
One son had grown to be the alpha male for the colony. He led the largest groups in their migration flights. Many other birds gave way to him. They acceded even to his whims for food, nests, and drinking water. Now the only bird to whom he occasionally deferred was his mother.
He was tough and wise and had married the strongest of females. His children were many.
The other son had grown up to become an ordinary member of the colony. He was one of the weaker males, although considered wise. He had chosen a sickly mate out of love for her spirit. They had one child, now grown and out of their home.
"I feel horrible today," announced the alpha parrot as he landed on the edge of his mother's burrow.
"You look as strong as usual," his brother replied.
"My looks are deceiving. One of my friends tried to poison me."
His brother and his mother chirped at him. It was not unheard of for parrots to seek advantages over one another, especially near the top leadership positions of the colony. But it was alarming for them to hear of such things.
"What makes you say that?" his mother asked.
"He gave me a gift of seeds, as many do." The alpha male strode into his mother's burrow. The other two followed. "But the husks were poisonous."
"Pardon me," said his brother, "but couldn't you see that the husks were on?"
"Yes. I didn't care at the time. I thought I could gnaw off the husks. Isn't that what common parrots do?"
"We do indeed," said his brother. His mother nodded.
"That makes me feel stupid." The alpha parrot walked awkwardly. His stomach rumbled. He pecked once or twice at the back wall of the burrow. Even though he felt ill, his strength was greater than most. Flecks of stone fell from the wall. "I must have done a careless job of it."
"That's not like you," said his mother.
"I'm sure it can't be too bad." His brother joined him at the back where they had planned to expand the burrow. He also chipped away at the wall. "Perhaps you were sloppy. But you still couldn't have eaten many husks."
"I'm not accustomed to feeling ill."
"You'll get through it. You're the strongest, after all. You've been enormously successful."
"Not today. I hate to disappoint you, brother. Today, I'm sick and an idiot."
"I've admired how it hasn't kept you from doing great things.,” said his brother. "But I've always thought you were an idiot."
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Not Zen 82: Missing Song
One Thursday night, a group of professional singers went to a tavern. They had just finished a practice session. After a few drinks, they proceeded to practice more by singing in harmony. The other patrons didn't mind.
The next week, the singers stopped over to the same place, drank a little, and sang a bit more. The Thursday night visit became a tradition. Sometimes the vocalists would drum in time to their songs. Sometimes the other patrons would pound on the tables, chairs, or the bar to provide accompaniment.
As the tradition grew, the performances grew rowdier and more elaborate. During well known songs, the tavern regulars would join in.
There came a point in the tradition at which patrons started coming to the bar to hear the singers. The notoriety of the performances spread through the town. Art patrons came and bought rounds of drinks. More critical folks arrived and sat in corners. Curious musicians and rival singers came to see what was happening . Often, the newcomers added to the impromptu music when it began. Even when one of the original singers grew ill and could no longer come to the tavern, his friends continued the tradition.
One night roughly two years after the tradition began, a local man invited his date to join him in the tavern. He had witnessed the gatherings several times before.
"I've been visiting on Thursdays off and on since last year," he said. "You're going to love it. The songs are rowdy but sung in elaborate harmony."
Around dinner time, three of the original singers arrived after their practice, as usual. But on this particular occasion, they'd just learned the news that their longtime friend, the one who had been sick, had died. After a drink or two, they raised their half-empty glasses and made the announcement to the rest of the patrons. There was a moment of silence.
One of the singers began to drum on his table. He cleared his throat. But when he tried to sing, nothing came out. His friends joined in the drumming. But they, too, did not sing. No words seemed to come to any of them.
Other people began to drum. The musicians and rival singers beat on their tables. The regular patrons stomped on the floor. The bartender pounded on the bar. Kitchen staff thumped on the walls. Everyone added to the sound. The entire tavern shook. Waiters had to race to catch cups and plates from falling off of shelves. It was an earthquake of rhythm. Folks who had been eating picked up their flatware, knives, and glasses to keep them from walking off their tables.
The drumming continued for longer than most people could have believed, half an hour, and ended only when the original singers raised their hands for quiet. They bowed and left.
"I'm sorry," the man said to his date once normality had been restored. "It's usually music. It's ... it's not this."
"Don't say another word," the woman replied.
The next week, the singers stopped over to the same place, drank a little, and sang a bit more. The Thursday night visit became a tradition. Sometimes the vocalists would drum in time to their songs. Sometimes the other patrons would pound on the tables, chairs, or the bar to provide accompaniment.
As the tradition grew, the performances grew rowdier and more elaborate. During well known songs, the tavern regulars would join in.
There came a point in the tradition at which patrons started coming to the bar to hear the singers. The notoriety of the performances spread through the town. Art patrons came and bought rounds of drinks. More critical folks arrived and sat in corners. Curious musicians and rival singers came to see what was happening . Often, the newcomers added to the impromptu music when it began. Even when one of the original singers grew ill and could no longer come to the tavern, his friends continued the tradition.
One night roughly two years after the tradition began, a local man invited his date to join him in the tavern. He had witnessed the gatherings several times before.
"I've been visiting on Thursdays off and on since last year," he said. "You're going to love it. The songs are rowdy but sung in elaborate harmony."
Around dinner time, three of the original singers arrived after their practice, as usual. But on this particular occasion, they'd just learned the news that their longtime friend, the one who had been sick, had died. After a drink or two, they raised their half-empty glasses and made the announcement to the rest of the patrons. There was a moment of silence.
One of the singers began to drum on his table. He cleared his throat. But when he tried to sing, nothing came out. His friends joined in the drumming. But they, too, did not sing. No words seemed to come to any of them.
Other people began to drum. The musicians and rival singers beat on their tables. The regular patrons stomped on the floor. The bartender pounded on the bar. Kitchen staff thumped on the walls. Everyone added to the sound. The entire tavern shook. Waiters had to race to catch cups and plates from falling off of shelves. It was an earthquake of rhythm. Folks who had been eating picked up their flatware, knives, and glasses to keep them from walking off their tables.
The drumming continued for longer than most people could have believed, half an hour, and ended only when the original singers raised their hands for quiet. They bowed and left.
"I'm sorry," the man said to his date once normality had been restored. "It's usually music. It's ... it's not this."
"Don't say another word," the woman replied.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Not Zen 81: The Simplest Understanding
A teacher and one of his students strolled through a park as they discussed the concept of the lack of distinction between places. The student said she understood how there could be no 'here' or 'there'. She said she thought it meant there should be no distinction between compass directions either since they can all be the same direction.
"I feel that I know this," she said. "And I know that many religious figures agree on the concept. But last month in school, you gave me demerits for my failure to understand. Then, just yesterday, you admitted that your old teacher also failed to understand the same thing. Why did you revere her? You say that she experienced the same failure I've suffered."
"Perhaps for 'failure to understand' I should substitute 'degree of understanding' or 'way of understanding.'" The teacher hopped across a rivulet of water onto an expanse of grass. His student followed. "Do you not see that everyone's understanding, even in the failure to truly appreciate a concept, is different?"
"No."
"Very well." He stopped where he was. "Let's use an simpler example."
"That ball!" suggested the student. She pointed to a small, red and white object they had been approaching for some time.
"A ball? Well, I'll try." He continued on his way until he reached it. Then he picked up the ball from the grass and considered it for a few seconds. "This is a mundane thing, of course. But as humble as it is, can anyone truly understand it?"
"Everyone can."
"Really? Look at it. Tell me how it was made."
"I don't know. Okay, so maybe I don't understand it. I can see it has a stitched cover. Someone or some machine sewed it shut. It has tooth marks marring the cover, too. I think that dog over there was playing with it."
"Right. So let's use the dog, you, the fellow who made this ball, and the person who designed it. All of you have some understanding of the ball, yes?"
"I suppose," the student looked down and crossed her feet. She seemed uncomfortable with the inclusion of the dog.
"Or does the dog fail to understand? It's okay to say that."
The dog noticed the ball in the teacher's hand. It whined and crept forward.
"I don't know. The person who made it probably knows it best."
"Perhaps. But this was one of many, surely. Did that person understand the materials? Or care about them? The designer surely cared." The teacher took a moment to smile at the dog. The dog sat down on the grass. Then it laid down. It waited for him to do something.
"Yes," the student rubbed her forehead, lost in thought, "but the designer had thousands made, probably, and wasn't there to see the defects in the materials or how fast the manufacturer worked or the problems in the tools used to do the job."
"That's true, a good point. So you say that you fail to understand the ball. And the person who made it fails to understand it. And the person who designed it fails to understand it. Aren't those failures all different? Aren't they all not failures, really, but different ways and degrees of understanding?"
The student threw up her arms. She shook her head, unwilling to agree.
Her teacher threw the ball. The dog chased after it.
"I feel that I know this," she said. "And I know that many religious figures agree on the concept. But last month in school, you gave me demerits for my failure to understand. Then, just yesterday, you admitted that your old teacher also failed to understand the same thing. Why did you revere her? You say that she experienced the same failure I've suffered."
"Perhaps for 'failure to understand' I should substitute 'degree of understanding' or 'way of understanding.'" The teacher hopped across a rivulet of water onto an expanse of grass. His student followed. "Do you not see that everyone's understanding, even in the failure to truly appreciate a concept, is different?"
"No."
"Very well." He stopped where he was. "Let's use an simpler example."
"That ball!" suggested the student. She pointed to a small, red and white object they had been approaching for some time.
"A ball? Well, I'll try." He continued on his way until he reached it. Then he picked up the ball from the grass and considered it for a few seconds. "This is a mundane thing, of course. But as humble as it is, can anyone truly understand it?"
"Everyone can."
"Really? Look at it. Tell me how it was made."
"I don't know. Okay, so maybe I don't understand it. I can see it has a stitched cover. Someone or some machine sewed it shut. It has tooth marks marring the cover, too. I think that dog over there was playing with it."
"Right. So let's use the dog, you, the fellow who made this ball, and the person who designed it. All of you have some understanding of the ball, yes?"
"I suppose," the student looked down and crossed her feet. She seemed uncomfortable with the inclusion of the dog.
"Or does the dog fail to understand? It's okay to say that."
The dog noticed the ball in the teacher's hand. It whined and crept forward.
"I don't know. The person who made it probably knows it best."
"Perhaps. But this was one of many, surely. Did that person understand the materials? Or care about them? The designer surely cared." The teacher took a moment to smile at the dog. The dog sat down on the grass. Then it laid down. It waited for him to do something.
"Yes," the student rubbed her forehead, lost in thought, "but the designer had thousands made, probably, and wasn't there to see the defects in the materials or how fast the manufacturer worked or the problems in the tools used to do the job."
"That's true, a good point. So you say that you fail to understand the ball. And the person who made it fails to understand it. And the person who designed it fails to understand it. Aren't those failures all different? Aren't they all not failures, really, but different ways and degrees of understanding?"
The student threw up her arms. She shook her head, unwilling to agree.
Her teacher threw the ball. The dog chased after it.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Not Zen 80: Bad Example
In a dale between two hills lived a family of red foxes. The father kept patrol around the den. Together with his vixen, he raised and taught two litters of pups.
One day, the father led his pups to a stream and taught them how to catch crawfish. His youngest pups had never seen the creatures before. They shouted at the way crawfish swam backwards with a flip of their tails. The pups’ father told them that crawfish could flap their tails and fly in the air, too. The vixen chuckled. The oldest child announced that, no, crawfish could only swim. The youngest pup, the only girl in the litter, didn’t know who to believe.
A week later, their father chanced upon a nest of snakes. He killed the biggest. Then he called over his family. He told them to scavenge the hatchlings.
“How do I grab one?” asked his daughter. She danced in front of the smallest snake, wary.
“By the feet, of course!” her father laughed. Next to him, the vixen’s eyes twinkled.
“Daddy!” wailed the daughter. “My snake doesn’t have feet.”
“None of them do,” said the oldest boy. “Just look at them. Snakes don’t have feet. It’s like those flying crawfish. Dad’s just talking crazy.”
The father yipped at them. He let his tongue hang out.
“Where do you think you should grab a snake?” he asked.
“Behind the head?” ventured his daughter. “That’s the way I saw you do it.”
“So I’ll try that again.” He winked at his mate and at his older pups. “For some reason these little snakes have no feet.”
He demonstrated the way to catch one. Everyone got a clear look as he snapped it from behind. Then the pups practiced on the remaining snakes. They and their mother hunted until they were full.
A few days later, the fox’s daughter watched him slip out of the den. She followed far behind as he pranced across the stream and passed into a grove of beech trees. He trotted along the grove until he found a sunlit spot on the edge of the trees, dense with ferns and grasses. He sat down next to a patch of wild strawberries and began to eat. She watched him pluck berry after berry between his teeth and tongue. She licked her chops and approached.
“Are those good?” she asked.
“Oh no,” he replied. “They’re poisonous.”
“Are you crazy?” she shouted. “Daddy, I see you eat bunches.”
“Then I suppose they must be okay.”
“Are you talking crazy again, daddy?”
“What do you think?”
She laid herself down and studied him. She got up and sniffed the strawberries in the bushes. She sniffed her father’s mouth. She licked the red juice off of his lower jaw. He turned his head away and laughed.
“Why did you say they were poisonous?” she asked.
“Am I being confusing? Should I explain?” He pawed the ground next to him. She sat down where he had gestured. He leaned closer. “Daughter, I have to say things like that because I’m not a good liar. Other animals are. This way I show you to look out for them. I want you to think about what everyone says and ask yourself, ‘Does this make sense?’”
“So you give me ridiculous answers to make me think?” The pup raised her head to look into his eyes.
“No, I’m just crazy,” her father admitted.
“Aha!” she shouted. “I knew it.”
One day, the father led his pups to a stream and taught them how to catch crawfish. His youngest pups had never seen the creatures before. They shouted at the way crawfish swam backwards with a flip of their tails. The pups’ father told them that crawfish could flap their tails and fly in the air, too. The vixen chuckled. The oldest child announced that, no, crawfish could only swim. The youngest pup, the only girl in the litter, didn’t know who to believe.
A week later, their father chanced upon a nest of snakes. He killed the biggest. Then he called over his family. He told them to scavenge the hatchlings.
“How do I grab one?” asked his daughter. She danced in front of the smallest snake, wary.
“By the feet, of course!” her father laughed. Next to him, the vixen’s eyes twinkled.
“Daddy!” wailed the daughter. “My snake doesn’t have feet.”
“None of them do,” said the oldest boy. “Just look at them. Snakes don’t have feet. It’s like those flying crawfish. Dad’s just talking crazy.”
The father yipped at them. He let his tongue hang out.
“Where do you think you should grab a snake?” he asked.
“Behind the head?” ventured his daughter. “That’s the way I saw you do it.”
“So I’ll try that again.” He winked at his mate and at his older pups. “For some reason these little snakes have no feet.”
He demonstrated the way to catch one. Everyone got a clear look as he snapped it from behind. Then the pups practiced on the remaining snakes. They and their mother hunted until they were full.
A few days later, the fox’s daughter watched him slip out of the den. She followed far behind as he pranced across the stream and passed into a grove of beech trees. He trotted along the grove until he found a sunlit spot on the edge of the trees, dense with ferns and grasses. He sat down next to a patch of wild strawberries and began to eat. She watched him pluck berry after berry between his teeth and tongue. She licked her chops and approached.
“Are those good?” she asked.
“Oh no,” he replied. “They’re poisonous.”
“Are you crazy?” she shouted. “Daddy, I see you eat bunches.”
“Then I suppose they must be okay.”
“Are you talking crazy again, daddy?”
“What do you think?”
She laid herself down and studied him. She got up and sniffed the strawberries in the bushes. She sniffed her father’s mouth. She licked the red juice off of his lower jaw. He turned his head away and laughed.
“Why did you say they were poisonous?” she asked.
“Am I being confusing? Should I explain?” He pawed the ground next to him. She sat down where he had gestured. He leaned closer. “Daughter, I have to say things like that because I’m not a good liar. Other animals are. This way I show you to look out for them. I want you to think about what everyone says and ask yourself, ‘Does this make sense?’”
“So you give me ridiculous answers to make me think?” The pup raised her head to look into his eyes.
“No, I’m just crazy,” her father admitted.
“Aha!” she shouted. “I knew it.”
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Not Zen 79: Act in Context
Two women sat beneath an awning in the rain. In front of them, a young man in the street gave up his taxi to an older woman. The fellow had to wait in the rain for a minute until he got another ride.
"I wonder if this is the last time in my life I'll see that," said the older woman. She started doing the math in her head and guessed it had been nearly twenty years since she'd witnessed a similar scene.
The younger woman laughed.
"Don't be silly," she said. "You've got decades to live. That sort of thing happens all the time."
"You're still young and pretty," said her friend. "Maybe it happens to you but I'll bet that usually the men usually would rather ride in the taxi with you."
"Usually, yes."
"When you're older, you have a more complete sense of the context. Have I tried to explain this before? When you're young, you might hear about an office worker leaving her job because her superiors are unethical but it doesn't make an impression. You don't understand how rare it is. Later, you hear a similar story. This time, you remember it because you've worked for a while. You know a little. But you don't have kids, so you still don't have the full context.
"Years later, when you're older and you're the family's sole source of income, you hear a similar account. Now you have a much more complete sense of what happened. The story seems so amazing that you almost can't believe it. You can't believe someone would leave a good position simply because the upper management was corrupt. You want to look for hidden reasons."
The younger one folded her arms and chuckled
"The first time you tried to make this point," she said, "was when you described pearl diving."
"What did I tell you?"
"That when a young diver discovers a perfect pearl, she takes it for granted. She doesn't know the pearl is rare. It's only when she's older that she realizes that the perfection she saw early on was a once-in-a-lifetime event."
"Maybe that's a better example."
"This feels like the hundredth time you've tried to tell me. But it's the first time that I feel you might be right."
The older women nodded. "You're finally building up enough context."
"I wonder if this is the last time in my life I'll see that," said the older woman. She started doing the math in her head and guessed it had been nearly twenty years since she'd witnessed a similar scene.
The younger woman laughed.
"Don't be silly," she said. "You've got decades to live. That sort of thing happens all the time."
"You're still young and pretty," said her friend. "Maybe it happens to you but I'll bet that usually the men usually would rather ride in the taxi with you."
"Usually, yes."
"When you're older, you have a more complete sense of the context. Have I tried to explain this before? When you're young, you might hear about an office worker leaving her job because her superiors are unethical but it doesn't make an impression. You don't understand how rare it is. Later, you hear a similar story. This time, you remember it because you've worked for a while. You know a little. But you don't have kids, so you still don't have the full context.
"Years later, when you're older and you're the family's sole source of income, you hear a similar account. Now you have a much more complete sense of what happened. The story seems so amazing that you almost can't believe it. You can't believe someone would leave a good position simply because the upper management was corrupt. You want to look for hidden reasons."
The younger one folded her arms and chuckled
"The first time you tried to make this point," she said, "was when you described pearl diving."
"What did I tell you?"
"That when a young diver discovers a perfect pearl, she takes it for granted. She doesn't know the pearl is rare. It's only when she's older that she realizes that the perfection she saw early on was a once-in-a-lifetime event."
"Maybe that's a better example."
"This feels like the hundredth time you've tried to tell me. But it's the first time that I feel you might be right."
The older women nodded. "You're finally building up enough context."
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Not Zen 78: Rejection
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When his hair was gray and fading, a man remembered the toils of his youth. He had been poor once and now he was wealthy. His job had gotten easier in the last few years after he had hired help. He spent his afternoons sitting and contemplating his past.
After weeks of reminiscing over his struggles, he decided to return to his old neighborhood. He wanted to look up his childhood friends. When he got there, to his dismay, he discovered that his closest companions had died. The best he could do was to locate their children and grandchildren, who lived on. In remembrance of his old playmates and classmates, he resolved to help their children although they were strangers to him.
For weeks he observed their needs. All of them were poor and required better food. Some were sick and needed medicines. He made gift baskets and, without the excuse of a special occasion, went from house to house one evening and left the baskets on their doorsteps.
"What a wonderful sunrise!" he exclaimed to his wife as he woke up the next day. He threw up his arms at the prospect of visiting the homes of his friends' children and finding out how they liked what he'd left for them.
"What are these baskets doing on our front step?" asked his wife. "I thought you were going to deliver them all last night."
"But I did!" he protested. He put on a shirt and marched out to see.
As his wife had told him, there were two baskets on the doorstep. In one of them, the note he'd left had been torn to bits and the presents smashed. In the other, he found a note in response to his. The reply berated him in vulgar terms. The medicine he'd sent for this woman's sick child had been returned unopened.
"What did I do wrong?" He sat down on the floorboards of his porch. "Is receiving a gift such an injury to pride?"
"No, I thought this would work," his wife said. She pulled up a chair to join him. "You convinced me. This was a good try."
His wife had married him when he was poor. She bore his first two children in a one-room home. Although she had come to enjoy the luxuries of their current, lavish lifestyle, she enjoyed talking with him about the hard times and work they had put in over the years.
"This note to me is right," he said. He held it up for her to see. "I was presumptuous to approach my friends' children."
"A little, maybe." She cocked her head to one side and smiled at him. "But you always have been confident and generous. I remember that you did something like this when we were younger. We had just put together enough money to move us out of that neighborhood. You tried to give gifts then, remember?"
"Oh." His cheeks flushed with shame. He had tried to give food. Someone had waited until he was turned and pelted him in the back with a peach.
"People are often ashamed to get charity. Others don't think they need it. Or they think your charity stinks. It's a gift of what they don't want and so it wastes their time. Who's to say they're wrong?"
"I was a fool."
"You stopped giving charity then. Have you learned your lesson?"
"I think I have." He gave her a brave smile. "It's prideful to think that my gifts and notes are wanted."
"No. Notice the baskets that weren't returned." With a wave of her hand, she indicated the number of gifts that could have filled the porch. "The lesson is: this time don't forget those who accept your gifts."
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Not Zen 77: Not Good at Anything
A meerkat clan waited on the hillside for the emergence of the queen's only child.
The queen, Sticktail, had birthed two stillborn children due to the hardships of the dry season. But her third child had survived and its strength was seen as a good omen. A new pup meant that the members of the clan, reduced by predators during the drought, could see proof of their vitality.
Sticktail's pups were usually allowed to leave their burrows at three weeks old. This morning marked the time for the emergence ceremony. The queen positioned herself next to the east-most burrow entrance. Beside her waited her eldest daughter. The queen's mate and his attendants moved further afield. They occupied less likely tunnel entrances from which the pup might emerge. Lower ranking members spread out to every entrance on east and south sides of the hill. The crowed rustled. Clan members traded whispers.
Everyone agreed it was fortunate that the queen's pup survived and doubly fortunate that the boy showed his mother's strength, intelligence, and calm demeanor. Many meerkats had already begun to refer to him as 'the new king.'
A young male named Darkeyes from a previous litter waited with the others for the pup to emerge. He did not feel grateful. He did not think the new child was his future king. He felt jealous that so much respect should be paid to one who had done so little.
Darkeyes turned his back on the entire burrow and surveyed the lands below the hill. He sighed. His father, one of the king's attendants, overheard him.
“Why sad today?” his father whispered.
“Because,” Darkeyes said, “this new pup is growing big already.”
“Yes, he is,” his father agreed.
“And he's smart.”
“Yes.” His father stopped watching the crowd and the burrow entrances. He turned to his son. “Is that a problem?”
“I'm not big. I'm not smart. I'm not best at anything. Everyone else is best at something. Others are strong. Others are brave. Others are quick. The other meerkats my age can lead sometimes but not me. Never me. I'll never be best at anything.”
The boy and his father looked out in different directions as his father, Wideback, tried to think. It was true that his son was not the strongest or fastest. Where would the young, growing meerkat find his place?
They waited. Occasionally, Wideback turned toward the clan to see if the new pup had crawled into the open.
In time, they heard a scrabbling in the dirt. Wideback turned to a nearby tunnel and saw that their newest pup had elected to emerge toward them. Other males, including the leader, crept closer to watch. Soon the pup stuck his head into the sunlight. He squinted as he adjusted to the brightness. The queen began to walk towards the gathering crowd.
At that moment, young Darkeyes started to bark. He sounded angry.
“Stop that,” said his father without looking at him. “You'll scare the pup.”
His son continued to bark an alarm. It was a sound that went to the nerves of every meerkat. It was a signal to be used only in emergencies out of great distress or a need to pass warning. Wideback took a few steps towards his son.
“Stop it,” he called to the boy. “Just because you don't like the pup is no reason to frighten him.”
“Shut up your runt,” said the queen's mate, not too far behind.
Wideback glanced at the current king of the clan, his cousin. He was not too impressed. His cousin was a strong male but Wideback had been the leader once, too. Then he looked to the three-week-old pup, who had hesitated at the lip of the burrow. He felt pity for the king's only surviving son. He turned his attention to his own boy, Darkeyes, who was being disruptive. He strode out a little farther and followed his son's gaze.
A moment later, Wideback started to bark.
“What are you ...?” The king hopped forward. Other males rushed closer to see.
“Look in those bushes,” said Wideback. He gestured to a feline shadow in a line of young guarri shrubs. “It's a serval.”
Slowly, the figure took shape in the eyes of the other meerkats. When they saw it for what it was, they began to bark and hiss. The serval, fully grown and large enough to hunt meerkats, remained cover but its eyes and part of its spotted, black and yellow coat showed through the leaves. At this distance, it would not be able to pounce on them without a long run. Had it taken them unawares, it would surely have sprinted up to kill a young meerkat, perhaps even the new pup as it emerged from the burrow.
Now that the clan had roused to the alarm, they were in good position to fight. Several of the largest meerkats streamed to the front of the crowd. The smaller ones began to retreat toward the burrows.
At the mouth of the nearest entrance, the boy who had started the alarm met with the pup. His father watched them. The boys sniffed each other. The pup seemed to take a liking to Darkeyes.
“Get back in.” The king stepped forward to push his pup back into the burrow. Wideback moved to intercept him. For a moment, it seemed that the two males would fight. But the king focused past Wideback to his pup as it met with Darkeyes. He could see that his son was making a friend. He nodded and held still. The older meerkats waited. Other males and females streamed past to harass the serval. Eventually, Darkeyes led the pup back into the burrow.
“Yes, well, that was rightly done, boy,” called the ruler.
“So trustworthy,” said the queen. “Just like your father.”
Queen Sticktail gazed upon her mate's attendant. Her mate snorted and turned his back. He let the queen proceed first down the tunnel toward her pup. Then he ordered the youngest males and females to the front to fight the serval.
In the burrow, Darkeyes lay down next to the pup. The queen crept in next to them a minute later.
“You turned out to be a good one,” Sticktail said to the boy, not the pup.
The queen, Sticktail, had birthed two stillborn children due to the hardships of the dry season. But her third child had survived and its strength was seen as a good omen. A new pup meant that the members of the clan, reduced by predators during the drought, could see proof of their vitality.
Sticktail's pups were usually allowed to leave their burrows at three weeks old. This morning marked the time for the emergence ceremony. The queen positioned herself next to the east-most burrow entrance. Beside her waited her eldest daughter. The queen's mate and his attendants moved further afield. They occupied less likely tunnel entrances from which the pup might emerge. Lower ranking members spread out to every entrance on east and south sides of the hill. The crowed rustled. Clan members traded whispers.
Everyone agreed it was fortunate that the queen's pup survived and doubly fortunate that the boy showed his mother's strength, intelligence, and calm demeanor. Many meerkats had already begun to refer to him as 'the new king.'
A young male named Darkeyes from a previous litter waited with the others for the pup to emerge. He did not feel grateful. He did not think the new child was his future king. He felt jealous that so much respect should be paid to one who had done so little.
Darkeyes turned his back on the entire burrow and surveyed the lands below the hill. He sighed. His father, one of the king's attendants, overheard him.
“Why sad today?” his father whispered.
“Because,” Darkeyes said, “this new pup is growing big already.”
“Yes, he is,” his father agreed.
“And he's smart.”
“Yes.” His father stopped watching the crowd and the burrow entrances. He turned to his son. “Is that a problem?”
“I'm not big. I'm not smart. I'm not best at anything. Everyone else is best at something. Others are strong. Others are brave. Others are quick. The other meerkats my age can lead sometimes but not me. Never me. I'll never be best at anything.”
The boy and his father looked out in different directions as his father, Wideback, tried to think. It was true that his son was not the strongest or fastest. Where would the young, growing meerkat find his place?
They waited. Occasionally, Wideback turned toward the clan to see if the new pup had crawled into the open.
In time, they heard a scrabbling in the dirt. Wideback turned to a nearby tunnel and saw that their newest pup had elected to emerge toward them. Other males, including the leader, crept closer to watch. Soon the pup stuck his head into the sunlight. He squinted as he adjusted to the brightness. The queen began to walk towards the gathering crowd.
At that moment, young Darkeyes started to bark. He sounded angry.
“Stop that,” said his father without looking at him. “You'll scare the pup.”
His son continued to bark an alarm. It was a sound that went to the nerves of every meerkat. It was a signal to be used only in emergencies out of great distress or a need to pass warning. Wideback took a few steps towards his son.
“Stop it,” he called to the boy. “Just because you don't like the pup is no reason to frighten him.”
“Shut up your runt,” said the queen's mate, not too far behind.
Wideback glanced at the current king of the clan, his cousin. He was not too impressed. His cousin was a strong male but Wideback had been the leader once, too. Then he looked to the three-week-old pup, who had hesitated at the lip of the burrow. He felt pity for the king's only surviving son. He turned his attention to his own boy, Darkeyes, who was being disruptive. He strode out a little farther and followed his son's gaze.
A moment later, Wideback started to bark.
“What are you ...?” The king hopped forward. Other males rushed closer to see.
“Look in those bushes,” said Wideback. He gestured to a feline shadow in a line of young guarri shrubs. “It's a serval.”
Slowly, the figure took shape in the eyes of the other meerkats. When they saw it for what it was, they began to bark and hiss. The serval, fully grown and large enough to hunt meerkats, remained cover but its eyes and part of its spotted, black and yellow coat showed through the leaves. At this distance, it would not be able to pounce on them without a long run. Had it taken them unawares, it would surely have sprinted up to kill a young meerkat, perhaps even the new pup as it emerged from the burrow.
Now that the clan had roused to the alarm, they were in good position to fight. Several of the largest meerkats streamed to the front of the crowd. The smaller ones began to retreat toward the burrows.
At the mouth of the nearest entrance, the boy who had started the alarm met with the pup. His father watched them. The boys sniffed each other. The pup seemed to take a liking to Darkeyes.
“Get back in.” The king stepped forward to push his pup back into the burrow. Wideback moved to intercept him. For a moment, it seemed that the two males would fight. But the king focused past Wideback to his pup as it met with Darkeyes. He could see that his son was making a friend. He nodded and held still. The older meerkats waited. Other males and females streamed past to harass the serval. Eventually, Darkeyes led the pup back into the burrow.
“Yes, well, that was rightly done, boy,” called the ruler.
“So trustworthy,” said the queen. “Just like your father.”
Queen Sticktail gazed upon her mate's attendant. Her mate snorted and turned his back. He let the queen proceed first down the tunnel toward her pup. Then he ordered the youngest males and females to the front to fight the serval.
In the burrow, Darkeyes lay down next to the pup. The queen crept in next to them a minute later.
“You turned out to be a good one,” Sticktail said to the boy, not the pup.
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